THE REAL KINKY ME

Long day

2009-11-19T16:48:00.000-08:00

Everything is great at home, Ray's position as my slave has being restore for a while now.

My goal however is to tell him everything about Ana my submissive and have them both work together to please me. Work hard I should say.

I am not much for sex toys; I never had much interest in them to be use on me, because I like human sex toys better. But lately I have being wanting to buy some to use on my pets. I bought a paddle, and I used it on Ana. Actually She bought it for me and told me that I could use it to punish her as much as I want. She of course did not have to tell me that, I know what to do with her.

I found a good excuse to spank her when she called three minutes late to check in with me. She is to call everyday at a certain time, I don't have to answer but she has to call and leave a massage, any message, It is just to have control of her day. Some weeks I don't talk to her at all, or even answer her e-mails. But I know everything about her because she leaves massages of her life. She asks permission for lots of things and she is also my financial slave she keeps me inform of her financials. So this system works well for me it is kind of stressful for her but I want it like that.

on this particular day I went to her apartment( I have a key) and waited for her to come home from work .I was so exited to use the paddle for the first time and I was already playing with my wet pussy. When she came in she was shock but immediately went on her knees, face on the floor, and welcomed me as it is appropriate for me.

I sat on her sofa looked at her on her knees and evil thoughts came rushing to my mind, but I stood quiet for a good five minutes.

"Assume the position " I said. She immediately got up from her kneeling position and put her ass in the air.'Yes my sweet mistress" she reply while putting her panties down and her skirt up.

I got up and touched her pussy it was wet. She had no sexual play for at least two weeks she was so horny

I humiliated her about calling late, she was apologetic. I told her I was going to spank her, and took the paddle out.I begun with slow blows to her ass one in each cheek at a time. "Thank you Mistress" she said every time paddle hit her ass. the stocks got harder and faster one after the other, she was now screaming "THANK YOU MISTRESSES ,Ouch, "

After an hour she was crying and I was having so much fun, I did not want to stop.But my fun was interrupted by a phone call from Ray who was just calling to ask what did I want for diner.

I was upset and told him I was busy at the time and that he has to make a supper to my liking without asking. "You need to be more discipline with that" I said softly "I am sorry I wanted to order out some Italian for you, It would not happen again, Cindy, promise" He said

'Call me Mistress, What is wrong with you?" I yelled.

'Mistress ,yes Mistress" He said.

At this moment I felt great, It feels good, power, feels great. I hung the phone and order Ana to play with herself I let her cum , she came hard and good. I left her with her ass red as wine.

When I got home I ate and I send Ray to the room "Go get naked and kneel next to the bed"were my orders. He run upstairs. While I was eating I was enjoying myself wondering what can I do to Ray now. He had being good , does all house work, takes good care of Melly and of course works hard to pay bills.
I was feeling in the mood for more spanking. I had never done that with Ray I was not sure how would he take it. I went upstairs and found him kneeling at the foot of my bed naked and with hard on.
'You can't wait for some of my attention, my little puppy, come,come to Mistress"

He loves it when I make him my puppy. I said "Ray I am very disappointed in you"
He tried to talk but I said "Dogs don't talk"
" I think you need discipline because when you called me today I was busy and you know your n role in this house and marriage, even thou , is just our arrangement and nobody knows. You know better than to do what you did , right my little puppy" I was talking in a very sensual and sweet voice. "I felt upset so I will punish you tonight, so you don't do it again"
"I am going to spank you, like a Little boy, and then you are going to spent some time in the corner"
His face went blank, he had no reaction at all. He just looked at me. To be honest I thought he would not summit or he would argue his punishment."So" I said
"Get in bed face down, and put your ass up" He just barked like a dog .
I spanked him with my hands and I told him to masturbate while I spank him. The punishment lasted like ten minutes I stoped and I said "go to the corner and continue playing with that useless cock of yours" Yes Mistress Cindy "he said meekly.
"don't you dare cum"
When he was in the corner I got my clothes off got in bed and begun playing with myself .
After a while I said " put that cock inside my pussy, now"
"May I say something , please" he asked "yes" I reply.
I am very close to cumming I don't know if I can fuck you the way you want Mistress"
"You have never"I said smiling at him. "Lick me, you,, bad dog" And "No more touching for you"
I had two very good orgasms and when I was done I send him to the bathroom to put cold water on him "and come back fast, I told him "no more pleasure for you tonight Ray"
He did as I said. I slept really good after a long day of fun. I am bening to think he enjoys denial he does not complain when I deny him.

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Slave is back

2009-10-12T11:37:00.000-07:00

As I was relaxing on my bed, Ray came in. I was wearing a tide fitted T-shirt and white lace panties. My belly was down and my legs were moving, while I played with my beautiful hair.

He stood there looking at me, I guess he was just waiting to be noticed. I knew he was there but , I wanted him to just stand there looking at my firm ass.

"Cindy" he said. I looked up and nodded "I am ready" he said while looking down at his hard cock. I look back at him in silence.

"ready are you?' I reply with my soft voice. "what are you ready for me dear husband?" Are you ready to become ones more my slave?", Or do you think things have change in my mind?"

Because if you are ready to submit you should be on your knees?", Don't you think?'

He nodded and said "yes, I know, I am ready for your commands and discipline, I know how things are"

"You are not ready, Mistress is what you call me, not Cindy" , "I don't think you are ready"

"Please Mistress let me service you now, please" he said as he got on his knees.

"that is better" I said with my evil smile on.

"Bark for me now my pet, " His face was full of satisfaction when he heard me say that. Of course he barked for me and took his tongue out like a good dog would do when hungry or thirsty.

"LICK MY ASSHOLE NOW" I ordered. "Yes Mistress" he said bringing his face toward my behind. "did you miss this my doggy?" I asked while caressing my breasts and playing with my nipples. "oh , My mistress Cindy I miss this Sooo much, I like to be here,to please you, I like the way you control everything, I am willing to go deeper as you have asked me before, this is a better way for marriage, I want this as much as want to be your submissive forever; I liked this secret life, Thankyou Mistress for introducing me to this world".

I was very surprised by this answer, his voice was full of excitement and he kept licking never stopping for one minute. "You like this now" I asked "or do you just want to please me?

"No when I was away I felt the need to masturbate a few times but then I found my self remembering our arrangement and did not stroke you cock, because my mistress Cindy is yours and not mine, I found pleasure in holding myself for you, I even had dreams of submission to you, please believe me, I give you my manhood I love you Cindy, I love your Ass, pussy, breast, feet,your hair and I love the way you control me in bed".

All of this gave me great pleasure that I ordered him to fuck me, and to ask permission before coming, He was so ready that it took him less than five minutes to ask and beg to cum.

I granted the permission but I told him to take itout first "Stroke it, and cum in my feet" I ordered he did as I asked "THANK YOOOUU MISTRESSSSSSSSS"he screamed in pure pleasure.

When he came he looked at me and said " I love you so much, I need you"

I said lick my feet clean, and then wash your mouth so you can come lick my clit, I want to cum"

It took him some time licking his own cum off my feet, but he did not complaint or tried to get out of it. He did it and I loved it, after that His tongue was good for my clit and I had a great orgasm. Which I thing is all about; ME and my pleasure.

Two is better than one

2009-10-06T20:33:00.000-07:00

It is very nice to have more than one slave. Ray is back but he is not available; his father died and I am letting take his time off. He tried to have sex with me last night, but I told him he needs to get past this sad time and come back to being my property, I explain that I will be willing to wait until he was ready. Ana in the other hand has being my maid, and a good slave to me all this time.

Ana is a true submissive women and sometimes I wonder about her. She is into financial slavery, she loves It and gets so turn on by it. She likes pain, humiliation, and even public embarrassment. I have not yet found a limit in her. Now she comes to my house and acts as my friend, does any thing I ask.I am very happy with her. I make sure to let her know when I slap her face after something I like And I say "good girl" she usually smiles at my slaps and thanks me.
We visit Veronica and we had such a great time, I brought Ana and she has her sub-boyfriend and another slave. It was delicious!!!!!
Three people at our service. Veronica spanked Ana and I used her subs for my amusement. They were naked, hard horny eager to please. Ana just wanted me to feel proud of her. The men I spanked their butts at the same time. "ASS IN THE AIR"I said firmly and the position was assumed.
When we were coming back home I asked Ana if she liked the session, her answer was "I like this life style mam, but I love to serve you, I would do anything Mistress Veronica ask, because You order me to." "So you did not cum?" I said. "Yes, when I was told to I came, thank you mistress. for your interest in me"
I told her to stop the car. When she did I said "tell me something you don't like to do" "Be honest" "I don't like to wait for your call for a long time, I would like to be able to call you my self, but Mistress, it is OK as long as you are happy I am just trying to obey you in being honest"
I was very surprised, it is a very little thing. It turn me on so much that I order her to play her pussy while I begun to touch my self, she immediately put her hand in her clit, and begun to worship me. I was just enjoying my wetness and listening to her in no time she was asking permission to cum. "no" I said softly."no more, sit right and drive while I masturbate slowly under this blanket that you bought me"she sat up and was quick about it. As she was driving I started to pinch her nipples very hard, and pulling her hair. Told her I want more from her.
She said "Mistress you can do with me as you wish, I told you, my beloved mistress, that I do obey you even when I am not with you, even following my rutine of my day, I do it to the best of my abilities.
We finally got to my house I was wet and she needed to pee, because I did not allow her to use the rest area rest room.
We went in my bedroom,I order her to lick me, I could see how unconformable she was.To say the truth I like to do that to her and I am hoping one day I will do it to Ray. I learned "Pee desperation " with Veronica it is total power over another human being.
She was right there next to my bathroom dying to release herself but would not do it because I said so. She was bringing her legs together and doing the pee-pe dance.
"Come, come lick me until I cum good" I said. She was moving slowly "On your knees" I ordered.
"Please ,Mistress I need to go to the bathroom, please" she pleaded
My voice was so soft and sensual " no, my salve I am going to cum, you are going to use you tongue to please me, come on ...oh and you better don't have any accidents in my bedroom or you will be punish severely.
Her face in my pussy felt better than other times,and I was so close to cumming I came good.
As soon as I came she got up when for the bathroom but I stoped her " wait, you haven't ask permission" I said with a smile in my face"
She was standing in the bathroom door, legs together hands on her pussy( it was great)
"May I use the bathroom Mistress...Please?"
"UMMM.....Y....E ...S, ,You may go t the downstairs bathroom...my pet" She walked as fast as she could and I was laughing at her. She could not hold it any longer and peed in my stairs"
She cleansed the puddle and came back to to say how sorry she was.
So I made her played with her pussy with her wet panties still on, She seem to have a good orgasm. She loves humiliation I guess We all can see that.
I wish Ray was part of this too maybe soon, maybe, but two slaves is better than one.

Spanking

2009-09-02T14:41:00.001-07:00

What a nice thing spanking is.
It is great. I had never really enjoy it , I have thought about it ,but never had the opportunity.
I spanked Ana last Sunday, for a good hour until her ass cheeks were red as wine and she was begging for permission to cum.

I spanked her soft and slow at first, had her count the stokes and she was to thank me every time shew got it.
I loved it. I used a brush, a ruler, a pink-punk racket, and a wooden spoon.
my favorite is the wooden spoon.
She was in a lot of pain when I got to the spoon, and in agony wanting to cum badly,
Her pussy juices were running down her thighs, she is into pain so much, which of course I love.
When I felt like it I ordered her to masturbate in the corner. " WORSHIP ME , AND TELL ME HOW MUCH YOU LIKE BEING TREATED LIKE A PROPERTY" I said
When I saw her in the corner with her hand in her clit, and her ass in the air, Waiting for permission to have an orgasm. I felt so much power and decided that I should come first.
Stop! I said "Come here, lick me , no more touching your self for now"
I can see her disappointment and that it was hard to take her hand away from her pussy.
So when she got close to me I slap her face. "you have to think of me first, I don't care how much you need to cum, you bad slave"
I had her licked me and I enjoyed it a lot. While she was licking me and massaging my thighs and legs ,I ordered her to play with herself.
We came at the same time. When I was done I pushed her away, And told her to shower and go to the closet until I need her again.
I love all of this new experiences. This is great.

Alone with my slut

2009-08-25T17:46:00.000-07:00

Ray's dad is very sick. We had to travel to his country to see him.

His father is such an important part of his life, he has very little time to be with him. I decided that he needed to stay there with dying dad and his elderly mother until his father goes.

He agreed and we both think is for the best.

It has been a week since I came back with Melly, I miss him a lot. we talk on the phone daily.

Melly went to summer camp on Sunday, so as I was driving back home after leaving Melly at her camp site. I felt like I needed some action ,sexual action.

I called my submissive Ana, She answers the phone like this" Yes Mistress" I like that so much.

I said " I need you to come serve me, tonight, can you ask for the day off tomorrow"

She said "Mistress I will call in sick tomorrow, what time should I be at your door "

"Now" I said firmly. "OK , my beautiful Mistress, do you want me to bring something?"

"Yes, bring me dinner , and hurry " and I hang up the phone.

I was wet and SO horny and felt in a very dominant mood. She came and brought me a dinner, Italian, my favorite. I was in my panties, and a t-shirt when she came. She was dressed very nicely, and serve me dinner like a true slave. brought me the food to my bed, stood there watching me eat, with a submissive attitude. When I was done eating I ordered her to wash my dishes.

When she was in the kitchen I was playing with my pussy, just enjoying my wetness .

She came back in my room and said " is there anything else you want me to do Mistress?

"Get naked now and get under my covers, and lick me ". She did; she was very eager to please me. I opened my legs and got comfortable she put her tongue in my pussy lips very slowly.

"Yes, that's how I want it" She lickedme and massage my thighs very nicely. I asked her between my moans "this is what you like to do every day, you are a slut, aren't you?

She answer " yes your slut Mistress Cindy" Can I ask you question Mistress ,Please?

"No" I said , "Keep it up, I want to cum very hard and good at least three times, before you can ask a question".

To be very honest I really did not care what she wanted or needed. It was all about me. It had been so long since I was service that I was enjoying it to the fullest.

I came good and hard as many times as I needed and when I was ready to let her out of my bed and away from my pussy I said ." OK, Get out now, go ,go"

she hurry to get out of my bed and felt when she was getting out. I laght at her and made fun as she got her self together. She apologize for her clumsiness.

"What did you want to ask ?" I said. She put her head down and begin to speak softly "I wanted to know if I could play with my pussy, I am wet still, I need to cum ,,Mistress,, Please , just a little bit"

"A little bit? I asked

"OK, Go to the corner and stand against the wall" I order firmly and play with you asshole.

" Bad pussy"I said " it is mine I tell you when you can use it even to pee, Right?"

"Give me a show,turn around , let me see you play with it now, but don't cum without my permission or you'll be punish"

So for a long period of time she played and played and every time she came close she shouted "Mistress can I cum, ooh please" I denied her every time. She was looking desperate I then told her " you know? that if I want to send you to bed with out cumming, I will spect for you to do it what will you do if I feel like doing that to you , slut?

" I will go to bed like this ...my sweet Mistress" she reply. "You may cum now" I said

"Thank you.......Mistresss.......Cindy... IMMM CUMMIG" She screamed as she fucked her pussy so hard.

It has been great fun to own not just a male submissive hubby, but also my own personal female slut.

Addiction

2009-08-08T06:19:00.000-07:00

This is addicting, power is an addiction. I came to the conclusion that is something that I just need to have on regular basis. I always want more , even though things in my home are great, I am the queen of my castle. I still fantasize of more; I play with my self on the regular basis.

I would love to have more then three submissive pampering me and pleasing me to my hearts desires. I would love to prepare a room in my basement to have fun with my human toys.

I met a Hispanic female submissive, I met her through this blog, she is extremely submissive. At first we exchange e-mails and chatted. She offer to be my slave and I told her I was going to test her , to see whether or not she was being honest.

She comply with all my demands, I watched through her her web cam,as she spanked and inflict her self pain, for my amusement. Then she earn the privilege of a phone number to call me whenever I wanted her to call. She is very sincere.

I told her that it was time to meet, she was happy to say the least. We met at a public place, I asked her not to wear any panties and to wear a skirt .

She came in the movie theatre, the place I chose to meet, exactly as I asked, her skirt was short and her top was small. She had never seen my face, she could only recognise my voice. So for a while I watched as she was looking around not knowing what to do .She kept checking her watch. I guess she was nervous.

I finally came to her, she was sitting "hi" I said. She stood up so fast as if the chair had something there that pushed her up."Hi,Mistress Cindy " she said meekly. I locked at her from head to toe, as if I was examining her, like if she was a piece of thing about to be sold. I enjoyed that moment to the fullest, her anticipation and eagerness to be approved was in the air,and at the moment in time I own the air she was breathing.

After a couple of minutes I said "did you get the ticket for movie, yet" " I did" she said "OK, good".We went in, but first she went to get some popcorn and drink. She carry them so happily, she was really enjoying her self , just by getting my snacks, of course she paid for it.

As we sat, she very diligently put my food where it was supposed to go. I began to talk to her in a very mean way, but with soft voice, her head was down and her eyes on the floor. "Let's go to the bathroom Ana" I said. In the way to the bathroom I stopped her and said "I want to check to see if you are not wearing panties, and make sure your pussy is clean shave" .

No one was in the bathroom which was excellent. " Come on, let me see, put your skirt up" she was inside the toilet space and did as I ordered. Yes no panties and a clean shave pussy. I then told her to open her legs wide I touched her pussy it was wet, very wet, her nipples hard. Evil thought came to mind, then I saw the toilet paper holder . I took it out with out saying a word, while she stood against the wall with her skirt up and legs open.

I said "want u to wear this in your ass,for me" She just turn around and put her ass in the air. Lovely obedience. the hard brown object was difficult to manege for me, but I put it up her ass. I then put her skirt down. "does it hurt "I asked "yes" she said "Good" I said smiling evilly at her "Let us enjoy the movie now" .

I could see it was hard for her to walk normal . As she tried to sit I said " sit as you can, maybe just sit on one ass cheek" I sat comfortable on my chair. I was enjoying the whole scene, while eating my pop-corn. " Does it hurt "I asked again "Not that much, Mistress i think the carton is getting softer, Mistress" she answer.

When the movie was done we stayed there until no one was left. " I am pleased with you Ana, you are true submissive and I want you to be my slave" her reaction was happiness and she kept telling me how she always wanted this kind of relationship. She almost cried, as she sxplain how much she wanted to serve me.

She works and loves to give me a part of her check ( I did not ask for that) she likes that. I brought her to my home and introduce her to Ray and Melly as my friend. She is fluent in Spanish, which I love since my first language is Spanish. Ana has all her family back in her country so I guess that is why she has all the time for me.

She is not a professional, but she is very polite, and seems educated. She has a very good appearance, and has come twice to my home. she keeps her distance remains the out aspects that I want her to keep, she is to be a friend of mine. But when we are alone she is on her knees.

I don't know if this is bad for my marriage, I hope not, but Ilike this.

My pet

2009-08-02T20:08:00.000-07:00

It has been a while now, that my Ray is learning his position in this new lifestyle. We could talk for hours in how different things are now. He is just getting used to all of my demands and the routines I want him to follow. I am not sure, he knows how much more I want, but he seems happy.

We never before watched porn, it was a big no -no We never explored that feature for our sex life, (not that I am really into it now or ever). I don't think I need much to get turn on. But for two weeks now I have order Ray to go and get some kinky movies, not just to download them, but, I want him to go out and look for them. Femdom that is what I want, he says he gets really embarrass when he is paying for them, and I enjoy that.

When I feel in the mood , I put a movie on to get him into a total submission mood at first it was not much reaction on his part, he was just curious , but I made him watch the entire DVD until he gets hard to make him stroke his cock a bit just to say "No! Stop" at the right time. It is agreat feeling.

I had some fun after watching a video with him. I told him as soon as he came in the bedroom: " I am wet, I want to play, I want you to come here and touch my pussy the way it should be touch" He was so happy and quickly undress himself and went to wash his hands ( it is something I want him to do every time he is to touch me sexually)

I was in bed with nothing on, I said "kneel before me now" so he did. "come next to the bed like that on your knees" It was such a rush just enjoying him walk on his knees with his cock hard. He came next to the bed and I began to pet his head like a puppy I said "look at you, you look So cute like that, why don't you bark for me, my pet." "Yes my Mistress" he reply

WOOF,WOOF,WOOF!" he tried to say something after the barking but I stopped him by putting my finger on his mouth and whispering in his ear "no, talking, only puppy like noises, or bark for mistress" He began to make noises like a little puppy would. I pet him like a proud dog owner would "good boy" I said while putting his hand on my pussy and his mouth on my breast "I want to enjoy this Ray" I said while getting myself comfortable in bed. I opened my legs wide my pussy was extremely wet and when his fingers massage my clit at the right speed as I have taught him, It felt great. After I came the first time I change my position and sat up.

"Goo boy, take your tongue out lets see",he was so good doing that I said "you are good dog Ray,not a man a good dog" I said "climb to bed my puppy come here with Mistress" I said get in between my legs and lick my clit, drink my juices, just lick now, put your hands behind your back and lick nice and slow" I was massaging my nipples and telling him how I want it my dog to be.

He did as I asked; my pet licked my pussy dry and sucked my asshole clean. I am please, "now your reward" I said. He was so happy in expectation of what was I going to say "fuck me, you have permission to enter my pussy" He looked worried I said "do it, you are allow to cum, just before you cum, bark like the dog you are, babe" It was no more then five minutes he was barking and waving his tale in and out very hard. When it was over he said "thank you for letting me fuck you, I miss it , thank you for letting me cum, I needed it so much"

' I know, I know " I said "you are getting very good in bed" and I laugh and order him to take a shower.

My maid, My toy, my pet I wonder what else is he good for.

A Nice Metting

2009-07-23T17:12:00.000-07:00

I finally met Veronica, she is wonderful and we have the same mind, same kinky way of thinking. Her slave boyfriend came with her. He is not what I expected, he is not much to look at. He was not like Ray is, he wears glasses and is not that tall. But I know comparing is not good.

Veronica is very sexy and attractive she is very assertive.

We met at a public place, at the mall, she got there first and waited for me sitting on the food court while allan, her slave, waited standing up next to the entrance. He saw me and walked towards me and introduce him self, and took me where Veronica was at.

He remain standing until she told him to sit. We talked about many things that we want to do together, we talked about mundane things too. She loved me , and kept saying how she loved my hair, and complemented me on my body and clothes, we were like all friends just enjoying ourselves.

A good hour went by, then she ordered allan to bring us food, she order him exactly what she wanted and then asked me I order my food, she told him to get a kids meal for him.

After we ate we walked around the mall laughing, and just enjoying the afternoon.
Allan opened his mouth and said " Mistress Veronica, may I have permission to pee". I was so amuse at this; I looked at Veronica and smiled, she smiled back and looked at him and said "don't bother me now, puzz, Hold it in" he said "yes, mistress,.. bbut , I did not go before we came...remember mistress" She ignore him and kept walking normally.
She said to me "you know what? I need to go use the bathroom myself let's go". I laugh and she smiled. We went in the bathroom she told him to wait standing next to the bathroom, he just nodded. In the bathroom I asked her "are you going to let him pee, the poor child" and laugh, and laugh. She said "I will ..when I feel like it, Cindy this is exactly what it is to have a slave he pees when I say" .."What if wets him self?" I asked. Well then he will be very embarrass, right?". We came back out and there he was as she ordered.; standing waiting. He did not speak again.
At the end of the day when we were saying bye, she turn to him and said "say bye to Miss Cindy now" He said very respectfully " very nice to meet you, Mistress Cindy, You are a very lovely lady" and bow his head nicely. then she asked him " do you need to go to the bathroom?" He was ashamed I guess from before. He said "I you allow me to pee, please, mistress I will be very grateful".....silence. I love the moment.There was this grown man, financially secure, in his mid forties, in a public place asking permission to use the bathroom, asking a younger sexy Latin women. Powerful!
She said " OK go, hurry, just pee and comeback" he looked like he really needed to go he was bringing his legs together and he tried to run to the bathroom without wetting his pants"
It was so funny watching him run, tyring to find the men's room. I was laughing so much and she said she was glad I had fun with that. I was too curious to leave yet I wanted to see him come back and see what was going to be his reaction. He came back running, but calmer and relief .
Veronica said " did you wet your panties?"He nodded. She said "well then you know that you will be punish, for that". .."Go to the car, and bring it here, now" He said in a very soft voice "I am so sorry Mistress, It is just a drop, I tried" she said demanding and kind of annoyed "Go GET THE CAR".
It was a very nice window for me, she is great, and has a lot in common with me. Nice meeting

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IN THE CLOSET

2009-07-21T10:10:00.001-07:00

Mistress, Yes, Mistress is the response that Ray gives me any time I give him instructions for something I want. I feel really good about this, it was one of my goals. He is always hard, constantly turn on. He loves it when I just point with my finger and he assumes the position I want him to take.

I introduce him to punishment the other night; I told him at diner that I was not satisfy with the meal, he smiled at me and said "I am so sorry honey". I gave him an angry look for him to know that I was serious and not to take it lightly.

In our bedroom he was exited and already hard and said" You want to play, right?" "No", I said sitting up in my bed," You enjoy me taking control, but you don't respect me like I want to be respected". He apologize immediately.

I said " I am your teacher, your guide, your Mistress, you need to keep that in mind even when we have other people around us" He stood there quiet in front of my bed nude. He lost his hard on, he really felt bad. I enjoyed it a lot.

I took this moment to discipline him, and scolded him; telling him how much he is just taking it easy lately. "put your clothes back on" I said firmly. He tried again to reply. I said "No, I said clothes on, I did not say talk"

He went and did just that, he came back and asked me " Mistress, do you want to be left alone now ,right? "yes," I said," yes, but I want you to learn a lesson, you are never to think you are good enough that every thing is fine, like you used to do before. never take it easy just because you did a good job before, you have to always try harder." He was so disappointed and sad

"I want you to go in my closet and stay there in the dark, and think how much can you improve in this new way of life; I know that now you are enjoying must of it. It is time to be discipline for bad behavior."
So many evil thoughts came to mind. It was so delicious seeing him there, standing looking down ,not being able to look at me, just like a little boy waiting to be sent to his room. " I want you to go in the closet and sit next to my shoes, smell them, and think how you are going to services my feet, since you like me to use them to play with you so much".

He asked meekly "how long do I need to be there Mistress" I said " what time is it, 10pm, OK, You will stay there until 2am, because you have to work tomorrow and I understand you need to rest, if not I would keep you in there all night.

"Mistress, yes, Mistress" he said. "GO, Now" I said.

I use that time to play on the phone and had a great time, after that took a warm relaxing shower and went to bed. It is great to have so much power.

Thank you

2009-07-18T16:55:00.001-07:00

Thank you all for all of your e-cards and nice wishes for me.

I Had a wonderful time ,I felt like a Goddess.

I am very pleased with my submissive hubby Ray. He did a good job.

A nice letter

2009-07-18T14:25:00.000-07:00

A female submissive wrote this very nice letter:

My dear Mistress Cindy:

i am so happy that you respond to my email THANK YOU

YOU are a Wonderful woman and far Superior to me and and any men.

All my life, i wanted somebody like YOU. Mistress Cindy Give me the chance to serve YOU.

i am a very obedient submissive and a slut, Your slut, my sweet mistress. my life i want to give to you. As you know i am Hispanic, and can be of service to you and your first slave Ray, I can clean your house, take care of your beloved daughter, and of course be your toy.

My pussy is yours all my holes belong to you. Use me and abuse me to your hearts disires. As YOU know i am willing to be a financial slave that is my main wish. YOU my wonderful Mistress Cindy would be in total control of me. I love YOU and hope to serve YOU soon.

Your property: Ana

My Birthday

2009-07-16T17:47:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow is my birthday, my 34Th birthday, and I hope to have a wonderful day. Ray as every year wakes me up with a song. He is a great musician. He is so cute singing for me with his guitar while I am still in bed , and he used to make love to me.

I told him I want more this year,I want him to do everything in his power to please me.

I want gifts not just from him, I want to have a lot of attention.

He asked m a few questions and I gave him some answers of what I expect from him.

He now is used to calling me Mistress.

I am very please with his performance in obeying me. But of course I want much more.

Lets see what happens tomorrow.

On my sofa

2009-07-09T13:48:00.000-07:00

Ray has gotten used to the idea of submission, I am enjoying every minute of it.

The fact that he gets hard when I am giving him orders or when I take charge on any given moment;lets me think he is a very submissive man he just needs my training.

I tease him constantly and of course I denied him constantly. He seems to be comfortable in his obedience. I enjoy humiliation and verbal abuse so do it to him,not in front of my daughter, but every chance I get in private.

I love to humiliate in soft sexy voice, it is a great feeling, the power over some one who would do anything to please me.

I was watching TV laying down on the sofa one evening after and Ray was washing dishes. He was done and came in the TV room and asked me " can I join you babe?" immediately an evil thought came to me ; I said "sure, sit there and massage my feet"

He was so happy and sat quickly and put my feet on his lap. He massage them for a bit and then I said "stop Ray,put your hands to your side now"

I begun to touch his cock and balls with my feet, he likes me to play with his cock using my pretty feet, he had a happy face on.I told him to put Melly to bed because I wanted to stay there and play with him.

He got up fast and he was hard as a rock and took his shirt out of his pants to hide it. and went and put her to bed. He came right back and took his position on the sofa.

'You like this ,huh,Ray" I asked and He answer "YES very much" I said "Good,I like it too" you know what I want you to do from now on, call me Mistress instead of just Cindy, it turns me on"

His look was priceless. "OK " he said.
"OK what? "I said "OK my Mistress" he said. My feet were getting to be faster on him and he was loving it. I ordered him "Take it out now" he did and I said who's cock is that?"t he said "yours"
"yours what" "yours mistress" He reply quickly
"I want your cum now, get on your knees and stroke it for your mistress " He obey immediately and came fast.
I loved the scene I was comfortable laying on my sofa, he was on his knees his clothes full of his cum for my amusement and enjoyment.

I like it like that!

2009-06-22T16:40:00.000-07:00

I am asexual being. I need to just be myself at all times. That's what I said to my submissive husband. Because he is submissive he just doesn't know it full well yet.
Ray has been upset for so long now, that I decided to talk to him. I was not sure what was I going to say,but I just wanted to talk to him to see what are my next steps and where am I taking this relationship.

I asked "how are you?" He said "Why" he seemed annoyed.

My voice had my sweet tone on . I looked at him sitting there on the bed worried, I guess, maybe a bit defensive and concern if he may had done something wrong again.

"I want to know what is going on in your head, I know things are different;I am different".

He looked at me with a sad look and said"yes, you are, I love you to death and would do anything to make things that way they were.But I think this is your vengeance for past mistakes ,I am willing take it because you are my wife, my life and I want to be with you forever.We are a family and we are the picture perfect family, you know that. To me that is vital specially for Melly.and don't think for a minute that I don't know that you are taking advantage of my weakness." I said "Your weakness is appearance you just want to look like the perfect traditional Hispanic family"I am willing to keep up the image for the outside and in front of Melly, but I am not going back like how I was.This is the true me"I said " I am just showing you how I like life to be for us".

"I have pleased you all of this time, it is my turn to feel satisfy,and I like it like this"

His response was"I want you to be happy ,and I don't mind waiting for you to want to be with me, or to make love only how you want it and when you want it, I know I need to be better.I am trying, please understand me ,It's just that I feel is never enough for you"

"It may not be Ray, you need to try harder and let me be your guide at all times.I know you will enjoy it because if you please me, you"ll know that you have done good to keep this family as you want it. I want things like they are now, or we can seek help for your problem"
He was shuck "No, No, I don't want nobody to know that, please don't even say that again"
I said "I know, I know, Let's keep it between us, so let's do things my way"He agreed.

He feels so embarrass and I know he would do anything to cover his sex issue. I think it is great that he knows I am not afraid to say it ,or to talk about it with anybody including our friends or his friend's wives. I told him this to make sure he understand I am serious about my place in the house, and in his life.

"I want to have a good time with you now" I said kissing him softly and very sensually on his neck and lips. He said "Oh me too, , I need you so much and want you so desperately,OH Cindy I want to bring you pleasure,I am going to make you cum so hard" I stoped and looked at him in a serious and demanding way, "No, You are going to be quiet, and do this my way, until I am satisfy, honey, you just agreed to this right?" And then I asked him to get naked before me and told him to lay at the foot of the bed. He did as I asked. I was fully dress at this point. His Cock was hard as rock .I said "do you like me to tell you how to do things in bed,or are you hard just because you are naked with me after a long time without any sex? He said "I feel good when you tell me how you want me to do things, because then I know You'll like it"

I said "Good,very good I like it like that" and I sat on the middle of the bed and with my size five feet started to massage his balls and cock. He tried to say something and I just said"SHH, no talking now"He was enjoying it to the fullest his face full of pleasure he moan and moan and tried to touch my feet " NO" I said every time. He said in "I want you now"
"Ray you are not trying, we are doing things my way right?" He just shook his head in agreement ;he was loving it. When he was close to orgasm I said "enough for tonight " He was surprise. I took my feet away and he was there in front of me naked, hard and full of pre-cum.
"don't do this,Cindy I got it already ,you need to be pleased first, I now know how it feels. Let me bring you to an orgasm" The feeling I got the powerful feeling is wonderful better than anything in this world."No"I said softly and very relax ,not caring much for what he wanted at this moment in time. I said "enough for today,Ray this is what I want"
he sat up and walked to the door and I said No,don't go any where, clean you cock and wait here with me" He said "why" "because I don't want you to masturbate now"
He said " I am not, you know I don't do that, Cindy you are being cruel." I said " No I want to trust you, and if you feel like I am being cruel, then you have to endure it, because I like it like that."

2009-06-19T18:04:00.000-07:00

My new friend...

2009-06-11T18:58:00.000-07:00

I was on the sex line the other day,not really having much fun, just waiting to connect to a kinky person or a submissive man ; somebody that I could have fun with. And then I got a really nice and sexy message from a female that sounded very interesting . In the message she said: "Hi my name is Veronica and I am a dominant female who enjoys power and control, I hope your pussy is wet because whether you are dominant or submissive we can have a really good time. Send me a connection request NOW"

I immediately did.

To be honest I wasn't wet but I got really exited when we connected. We started to talk about her; she is not married but lives with submissive boyfriend. She sounded so sexy and the way she describe her lifestyle was getting my shave pussy very juicy.

I ended up giving her my number so we could continue talking and playing with our selfs. She told me great stories of control I was listening and getting good ideas for Ray.

Ray ,by the way, is my maid. Now a days he is always busy doing shores and he tries very hard to please me in any way possible. I am making it harder and harder for him He still doesn't know he is no longer the head of the house,Ray is just part of my things now I do what I want with my things. He is not getting any sexual pleasure either .I like the tension that he gets when he is just waiting for my sexual attention. So the last couple of days I have ignore him completely and I have even asked him to leave me alone, to get out of the room and sleep somewhere else he does it, that allows me more time of course to spend on the phone with Veronica. For example he came from work and cooked a nice meal for us I told him I did not feel good to just bring me my food to bed. He said "Do you need a Tylenol babe" I said "NO,Just do what I ask, see what I mean when I say that you don't even try to be a better husband" He said " I just thought you needed something, sorry" "Just my food, Ray"
He said "yes dear"

That submission turn me on ,so I called Veronica and just talking about it with her was very liberating and I felt in charge and in total control. There he was in the kitchen cooking for me doing his best to cook a good meal , with weeks of no sexual release, while I was upstairs in my bedroom talking on the phone and gratifying my self .
He came upstairs and the door was lock I said " hold on". I opened the door in a very little top and a pair of silk black panties and the phone in my hand. and I said "wait" so I walked back to bed while he stood there with the tray of food, that smelled great, I got comfortable in my bed and I said " OK now bring it here" He said " do you want us to eat together" I said I am on the phone and I want to be alone now" he said " Are you sure, Lets eat together" I said firmly " Go eat with Melly" He stood there for some seconds and I said "What do you want Ray" He was quiet,but I notice he had a hard on, I said softly "I need to be alone now" And he walked away.
He had diner with my daughter and then he washed the dishes.
I think I am treating him the way he should be treated, and Veronica agrees with me.
I wanted to meet her in person she and I are so a like and I can even see my self giving Ray for her use.

Humiliation and Satisfaction

2009-05-04T16:12:00.000-07:00

I hadn't let Ray have any release since he tried to get some affection from me that is five weeks already. He acts as if he is hurt, he walks around the house doing shores and finding things to do keep him occupied,I guess not to think of sex, funny how he wants to keep his energy to try to please me the next time sexually. I find it so amusing.

He wants me to show satisfaction with his performance in bed.

I did let him know how I felt. He came late so I order some very Delicious Italian Food, My daughter and I were already having dinner when he came in. He gave me a kiss and asked " you ordered" I said "Yes, We were hungry" he said " Me too" I said "oh sorry babe you have to cook your own dinner it was not enough" and i smiled kindly to him. His reaction was priceless I would had never done something like this before to the contrary I would have cook dinner and have It waiting for him on the table. Not anymore. He was so angry that he went upstairs and did not say a word to me or Melly.I was so turn on I actually got wet.

So for a little while I let him be angry alone but went upstairs to the room to have fun with my toy. He was laying down on bed watching TV. I walked in and undressed before him, now knowing he needed some sexual release, I knew he would respond to my wishes fast and he did.

I got in top of him and started to kiss him passionately. He was where I wanted him in no time
He said " you are so sexy honey, I was waiting for this moment for so long.

I said "are you angry,are you" He said " no,I understand there was not enough for me, lets forget about please, let me enjoy you "

"No" I said getting my self off of him and sitting on the bed. You are going to take your time in please me first and when that happen you will think of your pleasure, Now go eat, make your self a sandwich" he said " but honey I have a hard on and I am no longer hungry" I said" Then I no longer want to be with you tonight. and got up and put my bathrobe and walked away . He was so angry, hurt, surprised all the emotions in the world were going trough him.

He fallowed me into the family room and asked me if we could talk, my daughter was there so I said " honey go eat" he was just so frustrated that he walked away back to the bedroom. Since I had some time in my hands I went and called the line and enjoyed my self to the fullest while my beloved husband was hungry, horny and hurt. Nice powerful feeling.

At night time I came in the bedroom again I was ready to continue his training, there he was waiting for me to talk about earlier.I told him that I was tired and not in the mood to talk.

He was angry to the point that he raise his voice" We need to talk" ,he said " I will listen until you eat either the leftover of my dinner (which was very little pasta and a piece of bread)or a sandwich "

He looked at me and said "why" I then got closer to him and grab his cock and whisper "because I want some satisfaction and I want to be sure, you will give it to me, you are being selfish. You don't want to please me, you only think of yourself, that's why you cum so soon; you don't care"

He said " how can you think that? I do anything to please you you know that Cindy"

I was so wet at this point.I said "touch and massage my clit now then"now? he said " yes now" I said and open my legs exposing my shave pussy."Now" I demanded.

He started to do it I was already wet he loved it. I told him I was going to instruct him on how I liked it. I spent some time telling him how to bring me to a good orgasm and I came So good And he was so hard and turn on he asked "You liked it right, It was good baby?" I said " Yes it was, and how many times did you cum before and I could not because you came to soon? I think is time for you to know how that feels. I want you to go down to the kitchen like that,hard, and eat the leftovers; that would really satisfy me, and then when you are done eating and are still hard we can enjoy me again.I want you to think of this as part of love making baby.

He was shuck but felt as he had to do it . It was a very convincing argument and to my surprise and delight he got out of bed hard and horny and went into kitchen and brought the leftover of my dinner and ate it in bed. I was SO pleased that when he was done I suck him until he came.

He was grateful because he felt as he had pleased me and he came. He was humiliated and satisfied. I am satisfied .

What is it ?

2009-04-27T15:20:00.000-07:00

What is it about this life style that appeals to me the most?

When I discover the sex lines I was just looking for some sexual release.

I was 23 years old and so horny all the time. I thought something was wrong with me because I was already married and had sex regularly , pretended to have orgasms for my husband's sake. I felt that was my job as a good wife, and specially in my culture man are should be treated as a king in bed his pleasure is the most important thing.
My childhood was full of this kinds of thinking "machistas" meaning men are Superior.
In the culture I am consider a good girl. Because I went to church follow the rules of my parents , was submissive and shy and respectful of authority and others. But as a little girl I masturbated, I played with my pussy a lot I enjoyed it to the point that I looked forward for my time alone. I just had so much pleasure on my own. I knew it was bad and shameful but it felt so good , I really did not care no more if it was bad or not.

When I met my husband I felt madly in love with him, I had no previous sexual partner,but I knew what felt good, I never told him. He had the idea of me being pure,which I was, but not totally .While it is true nobody had touch me sexually, I had had many encounters and many fantasies in my head I knew orgasms really well.
Submission and domination were present almost all the time. Now I know that I like to dominate men, but I could very well submit to women with pleasure.

What is wrong?

2009-04-22T10:37:00.000-07:00

Every thing is control for me now, every little thing in my home, is under my control. It feels great to be pamper and to have everything done for me. My Marriage life is getting to where I want it to get. It has gotten to the point that I may just tell him about the sex phone lines and also my kinky side. I want to explore this lifestyle to the fullest .

Ray in the other hand is not very happy with my behavior and my attitudes.But he says nothing, he is not complaining or arguing with me ,instead he does as I ask and never disobeys me. Of course he does not sees it as obeying he just does it. Because I Asked it

Ray is a very sexy man and I guess the bad performing in bed has affected his self steam to the point of just wanting sex only When I ask for it . However he is very attractive and takes pride in his appearance, I love that Even young girls find him attractive. So what is wrong with him? he has no imagination for sex, his energy level has been low even in the beginning of our sex life but then I did not ask for more ,now I need more and I am getting to be very selfish about it. I want sexual satisfaction. Since I know him so well I can manipulate him to hearts desires. And by making him feel bad every time he can't satisfy me I get lots pleasure.

I haven't had any sex with him for almost three weeks, last night while we were in bed and watching some T.V he Begin touching his cock and But I ignore him completely and then he turned towards me. aAnd the evil thought came right at the moment and I said while looking at the TV screen "He is gorgeous (Manolo Cardona an actor) do you think his cock is big?" He did not answer so I said" I wonder how one night with him would be, maybe all night long, right honey" And he looked at me with sad puppy eyes. I smile sweetly and said "can you rub my back I am tired" He said "I am tired too" and turn his back on me. I asked him in a very delicate soft voice "what is wrong? He said "Nothing". I said "OK, good night" And I turned my back on him and I asked "do you love me honey" and He said" YES you know I do" I said "Good."

MY SEX TOY

2009-04-12T16:53:00.000-07:00

I am loving every demanding attitude I take towards my hubby, because I get rewarded every time.
I don't think he enjoys it as much as I do, but As long as I am having good fun is excellent. It is pleasureful to be rewarded just for being totally my true self.

I play with my self more often and I don't need to call the phone sex line as much.
Like right now for example; He is doing the shopping and I told him to bring our daughter with him. I said "I don't feel like going out,Ray,you go and take Melly with you"
I just got a satisfying felling when he said "OK." Simply OK. But I am planing to make him call me some nice name like queen,Mistress,or something kinky like that, but anyways, I like the fact that he did not give me any argument, or complains, nothing just obedience, so here I am in my silk panties enjoying my pussy while he is out shopping I may call the sex line now or I may want to play with him later. Its all up to me; is an evil thought to think of him as my sex toy but that is what he is .
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Things are changing part 2

2009-04-10T23:08:00.000-07:00

I could feel his excitement, was licking my breast and softly and put his hand in my wet clit, I let him for a little bit, I was feeling a sense of power. that I so much enjoy.

I took his hand out and move on top of him and I said "don't disappoint me honey , I want you to make love to me like a real strong macho Latin man, that you are" He gave me a look as if could not believe I said that. I just smile very sensually at him. He said "wait please wait "

I said "what my king" he said " don't want to cum yet" I said " NO YOU CAN'T, not now baby"

and I Said " lay back and relax I am going to ride your cock because I need it, I need this now, but don't cum my love" And I started very slowly and as I sensually rode him I said " Hold it baby " but even though tried; he came soon. I stopped gave him a mad look and he was so full of shame . I looked at him so angry and said nothing. He said nothing and got up and cleanse himself. I was in bed looking at him. He came close to me and try to touch me

I said "don't you dare" he said "I am so sorry precious let me make it up to you, you can have great orgasm you are close to cumming too"

I said "No I am not, I feel so horrible you are no good,what do I need you for, I am going to leave you and tell the world the reason why" He stood there quiet,I was enjoying this so much.

"My pussy is wet and you can't act like a man for more than 10 minutes," I then sat up in bed and spread my legs exposing my pussy and said "See it I want some pleasure and you can't,What should be done about it Ray" He seem as if he wanted to cry, I had never talk to him like that,even though lately I was mean to him after this kinds of incidents never like this.

I said "Honey I just wanted some" He said "Do you want me to buy you a vibrator"

"No I don't " I was so wet and ready to cum.I said "come touch and caress my pussy now"

He did just that,I kept my legs spread very widely and cum really good. I screamed in pleasure. I think humiliating him was the best part of love making, don't you?

Things are changing

2009-04-10T17:52:00.000-07:00

My secret life is wonder full. I meet lots of very kinky people almost every time I call the line, But lately I want more and more to have those experiences in real life.
And things are starting to change around my home. I have become more demanding on my wonderful husband of 13 years.
He is a tall very sexy Latino male.
He is always so kind to me and our Daughter, He works hard for us. Which is excellent, but in bed he is not that good, and lately he is not able to finish the job well.
This has happened for some time that is how I started to release my self by calling the phone sex line.

He has never found out about it and I am always care full, I try always to treat him nice, show him respect, and when it comes to the bad sex life I was always gentle with him , I told him all the time that it was OK . That I love him. I tried to conform him, and after doing that comforting, I would find a place to just enjoy masturbation and maybe call the line to have a real good orgasm. The last times that he ejaculated too soon he would finger my wet pussy, which was good. He feels better if I cum.

Now a days I don't do it anymore. I enjoy to see him be disappointed on himself. I guess is the dominant coming out . And when he does not perform I just get up from the bed and go in the shower or any where else. When I come back he is SO apologetic, and that turns me on so much, I get so wet listening to his sorrys and listening to him begging me to let him touch my pussy.

This is happening more and more. I like it. I love him still. He is sweet and kind and , people always tell me how lucky I am to have him. But he has the problem with his penis. When we talk about it he says he wishes he was good in bed for me ,he wants to please me he says , and I believe it. That is why I want him to become my submissive not just as he is now because he does anything I want, but I need submission from him.

He is a great cook and loves doing it so it has been easy having him do all the cooking lately I still clean and laundry but I am planing to do nothing around the house. He treats me great and he has always done it, I just want to bring him to be extremely submissive.

Last night I wanted to play so I had just came out of the shower and he was in bed watching T.V

I got in bed naked and softly started to lick his nipples and my hand went slowly down to his cock, it was hard he turned towards me and tried to finger my pussy , I whisper in his ear "no not yet, let me give you pleasure baby" and he insisted and said "let me be sure you are well satisfy " I moved his hand away from my pussy and said "No, I want it like this" and I begun to suck him. and after a while I stop and begun to play his balls while I whisper softly "I am SO wet, I shaved my pussy for you, just now when I was in the shower I want your cum all over it"He was so turn on he tried to get closer to me again and then I said very sweetly "no honey please not yet I want you to let me please you now" so he lay down again as I continue playing with his balls and sucking his cock.

He was ready to cum and I stop and brought my breast to his mouth and he wanted to suck onthem,I said " no just gently lick them honey" he did and he put his hand in my pussy again while he lick me as I asked. I could tell he was ready to cum ... to be continued

Not a good submisive

2008-11-12T14:55:00.000-08:00

The man from the Internet sounded serious; after the first email I did not answer for awhile he wrote

did i do something wrong? :(

So then I sent him this:

you have not done anything wrong.But I have all power over you, you should know that you are to wait as much as I see it proper for u to wait.I want your total obedience.you will not regret being mine, because you want this so much u can't wait I Am going to give my rules little by little; 1) I will give u one assignment u r to do it well if I am not pleased u will pay For tonight I want a adoration letter in it u are to worship me, and also I need to know more about you like, do you have experience being a slave?how old are u? and how u look ? how much do u want this to work? Do a good job with the letter and when you answer my questions do it truthfully and respectfully your only owner and mistress CINDY

He reply immediately :

i understand

i will write a full response by morning, but have been waiting like a panting dog for your email...

does it excite you that i am sitting next to my wife with my laptop on my lap writing you....
my mistress.

I did not sent any respond I liked the idea of him being with a hard cock thinking of me, and just waiting for a little of my attention.

But he wrote back at 6:00 am this:

Dear Mistress CINDY,

As you instructed me I am writing this letter to show you how much i truly worship you. You should know that I shake when I even think of you. Since sending messages back and forth the other day all I could think of is how I want to be on my hands and knees and grovel in your presence.

I want to crawl on all fours and be at your feet. That is where my place is. That is where I belong, your obedient slave... I will obediently follow your commands. I will worship your shoes... i will lick the tops, running my tongue around it and making sure every inch is cleaned... then I will lick the soles of your shoes, making sure that it too is totally clean, not caring where you have walked before I put my tongue to it... then, I will take the heel of your shoe and suck it clean... wrapping my tongue around it and slurping like an obedient dog... for that is what I am in your presence... i am your pet, your toy, to do with as you please.
If you are satisfied with the way I have cleaned your shoes I will lick the very floor you walk on... I will clean the floor with my tongue.

I want to worship you all over... but only as you give me permission. I want to be your obedient slave.

Mistress CINDY you are my goddess, I worship the ground you walk on. I bow my head in subservience to you, my mistress...

Your obedient slave
Scott

ps. in answer to your other questions:
i have never been a slave... i have had two live visits in which i was dominated
I am 53.... is that too old for you my Mistress?
I am 5'10" and weigh 230 lbs.
I am professional and look the part
I truly want this to work but am concerned that I have a lot of things that restrict what i can and
cant do, ie. i am married, my work schedule is very hectic and takes a huge amount of time
Mistress, you asked me to be honest and I am trying my best... i hope you understand.

Respectfully,
scott

Another one at 700am

Dear Mistriss CINDY,I woke up this morning thinking of nothing but bowing down before you and begging for the priviledge of licking your pussy. For the priviledge of licking your ass. For the priviledge of being your slave.respectfully,scott
See he wanted it so bad that he emails me so early, I am good.
Then he wrote one title mid-day

Dear Mistress,My cock has begun to ache as i think about crawling for you....worshipping you in any way that pleases you...I am in an office right now with people all around but my thoughts are in serving you.I will be in NY on Monday... do you get to the city much?respectfully,scott

And another one title 1:20

Mistress CINDY,Its 1:26 quiet in the office, my cock is aching just at the thought of bowing down in front of you.respectfullyscott

Well it was good for just a little fun, and I gave him some instructions but then he could not comply with my orders

Not a good submissive.

Slave letter

2008-11-02T09:08:00.000-08:00

Last week I was on line,and I gave my email to a older man who has always dreamed of having a mistress and this is what he wrote:

Hello Cindy,I just arrived home and am still very excited.Your voice, tone and confidence have already captured me.I understand my place. It is at your feet. I know that is where i belong.I can already taste the leather of your stilletto shoes as I worship them with my tongue. You look down at me and i know that i am there to serve you. I would beg to clean them, both the top and the soles and then take the heel and begin to suck on it.My hands are shaking as I write this email... knowing that you will be reading my words... knowing that you already have power over me. I am ready to willingly submit to you obvious superiority, your strength. I understand that I am your property, to use, to degrade, to humiliate and to punish as you wish.Your being in NJ makes this that much more exciting...I hope this first email pleases you... I will be able to log on later and only hope that you honor me with a reply. I shake in anticipation.Respectfully,scott

Who am I?

2008-11-01T13:50:00.000-07:00

I am a 33 year old hispanic female, wife of a loving husband, and a mother of a wonderful daughter. I go to church regularly, have a good job, and good life altogether. But for a long time
I have dreamed of another life, one that is not normal for many people and specially not for my family and friends. It is inside me and I am always wishing to act on those desires.
When I was younger and single I tried to fight it, because they are sinful but I always lost the battle, now the fight has come to a stop.

Even though my husband does not know the real me, and honestly he would not be able to satisfy my needs, he is a great husband but too normal and too perfect, he likes that kind of sex.

I like kinky sex, submition and domination, bisexuals and humiliation. I had these thoughts for ever. Since being a girl my fantacies were always of this nature. So to satisfy my cravings I use the phone; calling a free sex line is kind of a rutine now, I love it just talking about it and role playing gets me so wet many people share my same fantacies and just being allow to be my true self is such a turn on.I get horny, wet, cum and then hung up, sometimes I talk off line with some people until I get total satisfaction.